Serenity
Green
Energy
Tiger
Resting
Rite
Genre
Seeing
Testing
Steiner
Gentry
Setting
Seer
Steer
Nest
Trees

As Solitude Fades Away

The treachery of pretended solitude

Alone with my thoughts

Out of lonely desperation I reach out

The hands that are being offered

Feel somehow leprous

Is my judgment the cause

Of this involuntary revulsion

Is it the power of higher spirit

That protects me from making the wrong step

Thoughts flooding playing mental tennis

God knows he the net is

Longing for company of more than one

Relief and lightness in need

The heart of my signals

Change of direction away from myself

Open to the good world

I walk towards infinity

Making the unknown

My best friend

You change the colour and I change the tone
Who lasts the longer in the tug of war
The rope being but a silly toy thrown
Into our lives
By the creator of distraction

Weightless I am yet so deeply rooted
See of emotion grabs my feet
With every step towards the shore
I either sink further or rise higher

How far to go
The straightforward beauty of flesh denied

See the inner lights
Tremble with joy my little shiny star

From the grace once possessed
As we run towards the lure of comfort
So we break
The precious link with spirit

The pattern repeats
Throughout the times of enslaving the Earth
Different shapes and shades
Of the same limited principles of flesh and matter

Sick and drained of vitality
We lay down in hope
Of the upcoming dawn
To bring the shift
Our better selves so desire
To restore the lights within
So we can shine again

Ignorant of the fact none of this can transpire
While we so desperately cling
Onto the handful of nuts
We think crucial to our eminence

And so we fall
Pulled in by the glittering shine
At the bottom of the abyss
And so we run
Away from the gardener’s arms

As we fulfill the lot of mislead humanity

Could it be conceivable… All this sensuality,
That can overcome a man
So extensively,
That becomes the prime focus
Of the vast majority of his adult life.

Could it be
That all men’s interactionsAll glamour and desire to impress
Choosing the perfect mating companion
And dedicating life to carnality

Is it imaginable
So overwhelming jolts of passion,Then acts of betrayal and sin,
Mind viruses that weren’t ignored but obeyedLeading to the most horrible crimes

Is this but a demented desire
To be back inside the womb – in peace and safety?

I am the monster and the beauty

They both stare into the same abyss

Continuously in confrontation

Each convinced their way is the best

In the midst of this I live my life

Daydreaming of rays of the golden sun.

Vaguely I recall the light that is beaming

Outside my little world of thought blizzards

Bathing in its awe inspiring serenity

I once spent light years

Being its source and letting it shine

Through my very soul

Different love engulfed me

One of the pure kind

The mother of all loves

Enraptured I was…

…yet strangely, in my daily mind

I remember none of it.

Decisions based on purity and insight

Vows of commitment to the path with heart

Moments of random happiness

All brought down by his niggling viral whispers

Implanted in my head

In moments when I indulged and let go

And sought ephemeral satisfaction

Where does the circle break

Will it stay like this forever

At war with his tempting suggestions

Despise my whole self

While only a fraction of me has sinned

His highest achievement

Stronger men before me

Have been driven to rot in dead end passages

That started as abundant avenues

Lined with the sweetest of red roses

The thing is back then there wasn’t many quality books on this subject and obviously they were hard to find as well, with no internet to turn to and my local library being rather limited in choice if anything. And try going to the library and talk about this strange feeling you have inside yourself and wanting them to help you to find related material on a subject you don’t even know what it is – so that was a bit of a challenge to face.

So the advent of internet and sites such as amazon and ebay made it sheer delight looking for stuff you love to explore. With each book containing different pieces to my puzzle I’ve been creating my own take on the unknown and unexplainable.

I’ve even managed to meet and befriend some wonderful people with similar views on life, thanks to the power of the web.

It just feels like this is the perfect era for people with inner callings to realize their potential and move towards their dreams with more ease and guidance. Rather than hitting a brick wall and decay inside your four secure walls you can step out and get the information needed for the next step on the journey of inner growth and nurturing the seeds of knowledge. Obviously, you need to be careful not do give in to temptation this world wide maze can offer and mislead you into its dark corners. The signs are always there and warnings usually flash in red if doubt.

Anyway, just wanted to express my gratitude to the modern way of communication and the great benefit it brings to a dreamer like me.

Sweet dreams.